As I am an autistic adult, it can be hard to be a real adult. For most of my life, I at times acted very childish in nature toward those that I felt deserved it because I wanted to believe that they would cave into my demands or childish behavior, yet, there is a reality that even though I am an adult, there is a necessity that I need to do things that I am required to do as an adult because it is expected that I do them.

Being told things that I do not want to hear can at times be extremely hard to digest. This can be especially true if things make our emotions flare up to the point that we want to express ourselves but as being autistic, not allowing myself to stop and think how or what we may say about something without understanding the consequences.

This has happened to me many times in my adult life, and I am forever grateful that things never got as serious as they could be. It has been one of the parts of my life that has allowed me to let my faith back into my life because there is a reality that things could have many times gotten bad because I did not think about my actions before acting on them.

Even though there are those in my life that I can feel extremely comfortable about expressing myself, there also has been an understanding that there is only so much that can be withstood before a limit is broken. Sometimes, that can be what must be understood, that the limit is nearing the point of breaking and there is a necessity of having to do what is necessary before something happens that could be very consequential.

In life, there are expectations and norms that must be followed. If there is an understanding of what needs to be met and what the consequences could be if they are not met, then there is no excuse for why something cannot be completed, or an issue should arise. In many of the realms that I am in, I understand that there are realities that must be followed to be able to have the things that are needed for me to have the life that I desire. This has been essential in the past year following my relapse understanding the reality of not being able to do things that need to be done and realizing that thing like adhering to my medication regimen is crucial to making sure that I am able to live my life as I desire.

As they say, life is not always fair, and that is absolutely true. There are expectations and norms in life that need to be met and as long do note consequences to when they are not met are understood and accepted, then there is a reality that comes with being able to handle those emptions properly because even though there are things that adults don’t like to do there is a reality that things that adults have to do must be done, whether they are liked or not.