In my life, it is often that negative thoughts surround me, it can be hard to see the positives of life. Even if they are there, I often want to focus on things that are negative and even sometimes untrue because I want others to feel sorry for me or that I think I should feel sorry for myself, but in all honesty, there is so much to be positive for, but it can be hard to see it sometimes.

For where I was over two and a half decades ago, it can be hard to think about how much things have improved for me when there was even a great doubt that those things were possible for me. It was the many people that thought that I was capable of the things that I am doing now that I can do what I can do today. However, there are many times that I fall beside myself and think that life is bad when it is really good for me, but I often choose to allow myself to see the negative side of things rather than the positive things in life because my brain wants to think about everything that is wrong with my life, no matter how good things are.

It can be hard to see that there are many things going in my life that would have not been possible if others had not seen the potential in me and continued to allow me to give me a second chance when I was not my best, that is why I guess I keep going when it gets tough because I know how fortunate I am to have the opportunity to do the things I do even when those things were not meant to be.

Yet, it can be hard to realize that am fortunate enough to be able to do the things that I can do as an autistic adult and that I am breaking barriers every day that many dare to dream. It is why I finally pushed through my battles with my medication and realized the necessity of it because it makes me be able to do the things that I need to do and be there for those that need me and be able to be counted on for the things that I can share my talent for.

It is seeing that there are many good things and that I can share my talents as part of the many things that I can do that keep me going and that I have even been told that I am a positive person when there is great doubt even within myself that I can come across as such. I know when the moment calls for itself and the mood is right, I can do what I need to do to make the situation that I am the best that I need it to be. It is the sunshine in my day that can be what gets me going in the right direction and see that there is benefits to doing what is needed to be done because I am one that is counted on to share my talent and knowledge with those that need it and that is something that I need to keep looking forward to finding the positive in.

So, as I go forward, it is knowing that I need to look forward to seeing the positive moments and talents in my life as a beacon of hope that will help me in those rough passages in my life.