Sometimes, I have great doubt as to whether the things that I do are worth their value. However, I eventually realize that there is great worth and value to what I do and that I am worth the things that I do and that I matter in all circumstances of my life.

For most of my life, I doubted that what I do matters to those that are affected by it. However, in recent years I have been told that I matter, and I have been profoundly grateful for the gratitude that has been given to me for the things that I have done. But sometimes it is those insignificant things that I think matter. In the end, I know personally that they do matter and by doing them continuously over time, there will be benefits to them because they take time to show their work, but it can be hard to be continuously putting in the effort without realizing that there is value to what I am doing, especially if at times it seems meaningless to me or that there is little value in doing what is being done.

I know no matter what, I must push through and do what I know that I need to do no matter how hard it can be to do it. My anxiety will often come into play and want me to avoid something that seems scary or challenging to me because it thinks of the worst possible scenario that can happen during the action happening. Those moments of waiting can be the hardest because I just want to get out of doing what I don’t feel is comfortable because I feel as If it doesn’t matter and that I am not worth it, even though I know that I am worth all the effort that I put into it.  

There are many times that I just feel besides myself and want to let what I think is wrong about my world surround me and think as if I am nothing, but deep down I know that is not true and no matter what it is important to push on even as hard as it can be to fight all the negative emotions that surround me, I know that I must overcome them because I know that I worth more than what those words are telling me in my head and there is no reason to sulk in the negative thoughts that I know that are untrue about myself because there is so much to be happy about in life, no matter how hard that it can be to find it sometimes.

Overall, I know that I am worth it and the energy that I put into things because they are the work that I have done. It can seem that it can be hard to push through the challenging thoughts because my brain allows me to surround myself with them and make me think that they are true event though they are not. I can push through the tough times because I know that I am worth what I allow to enter in my life as good things, I am worth it.