There are challenging moments in my life that make me say some pretty negative things about myself, bring my self-esteem down and make it hard to believe in myself. It can be hard sometimes to get out of that negative trench, but eventually there is a part of me that believes in myself that I can do anything I set my mind to.

In those dark moments, it can be hard to have the hope that I need to have to keep going, despite nothing being wrong with the situation at hand. There can at times be great doubt if I can do the things that I can do even though I have proved that I have worked hard to get to even this point in my life when at one time it seemed impossible for me to even be able to be where I am today.

There were many times when I did not believe that I would even be able to live this life. I did not want to work or even think of living independently. It took countless hours of therapy to even consider taking the steps necessary to do some of those things. Working was one of the things that I was kind of pushed into doing and there have been countless times I wanted to give up, especially when I was challenged to do things that were a big change for me, but believe it or not, making some of those changes were some of the best things that could have happened for me, even though some parts of either journey had its setbacks, I have conquered them because I have believed that I was worth doing what needed to be done that it would provide a better life for me and that it did.

So many of those whether they have supported me in the journey or been along it have seen what I wonderful person I am and believed in me more than I believed in myself. It can be hard to imagine that but when my mind has always been set to think about everything that was wrong with my life or what could go wrong with what I was doing, it was hard to see the positive parts about what I was doing even if they were in the process of happening.

It can be hard at times to imagine all the things that I have done in my life and the many roads that I had to take to get there. Sometimes it seems like it has not been meant to be. But there is also the reality that there are better things in store for me if I continue to work to conquer my fears and work at bettering myself even more than I do now. That can only be done if I continue to believe that I can do the things that I dare to dream to do. I know I am not destined to just be where I am today and there is so much more that I can do with my life if I allow myself to do what I know I can push myself to do even if my anxiety doesn’t want me to because I must believe in myself first and foremost and not allow myself to be consumed in my negative self-talk or self-pity by allowing myself to not see the good things that are possible to happen if I give myself a chance to believe that they are possible for me.