I have proven myself the last eight months since my mental health relapse by fighting some of what would be considered the most challenging changes in my life by conquering them head on and even moving forward with doing things ahead of schedule due to having more confidence than I ever had thought that I had.

I have realized that I need to continue to challenge myself by addressing more things that I do not do because of my anxiety and work towards conquering more challenging situations because I know that I can do it, it is just my anxiety that tells me that I cannot even though I know that I can. There are that I have already done in my life, but my anxiety holds me back from doing things that I know that I can do or even taking things a step further just because there is a great fear that something bad is going to happen even though I know that I have the confidence to do them.

Often when I go to do something that causes me to step out of my comfort zone by doing something uncomfortable but just getting comfortable for a couple of times makes it easy to be done, but if it is not consistent, I can fall away and become more scared to get back to doing what I have left. I know that consistency is key and there are factors that can keep that from happening. It is important to not give up when it becomes challenging to do something that is fresh because there is that tendency to want to not do it, no matter how comfortable it was in the past.

There is a sense of regret when I get back to not doing things that are new because I am a failure, but I know that I have a setback. It takes a lot of courage to get back to doing the things that I know once I get back to doing them. It can be hard at first to get back to doing things that I have broke apart from, in fact, anxiety can be tougher to battle than the activity itself, but it is important to fight through what needs to be done and not give up because it will only make what needs to be done worse to accomplish and harder to do, even though it can be a good thing and I know that.

So it will take more of fighting my anxiety and doing what is necessary to fight my fears and do what I know that I can do even if my brain wants to give me a million reasons why I cannot do what I need to do even if its something I know that will make me feel better when it is done and hopefully what I set forth to do will become like second nature to me!

I deserve all the opportunities that I have and can do. I need to stop letting my fear get in the way of doing things that I know I can do, will enjoy, or may even open more doors for me to grow more into the man I need to be. I deserve to be happy even if it means fighting my fears and doing things that seem uncomfortable at first, it will be easier.