It can be hard to believe that the journey that I have been on has been so inspiring to others. At times it takes me back how other people many times look up to me for the inspiration and courage that I bring to them.

Sometimes it is what makes me hold my composure when it feels like I want to lose myself on something that is out of my control. Although, I know that people look up to me, it is often hard to acknowledge that within myself and oftentimes I brush off my accomplishments or what other people think of me because I oftentimes think that is what is expected of everyone, regardless of whether I have my challenges or not.

I know that my life has not been easy to navigate not only for me, but for those that advocate for me when many people have turned their thoughts because of my negative actions. Sometimes when negative things happen, those that support me often remind me of how far I have come in this journey and that others look up to me for things that I have done because they know that they know that some of those things may not be in the cards for them and are proud of the work that I have done to get there.

I am extremely grateful for the many opportunities that I have been given in my life to rebound from doing things that might set me askew. There are times when more adverse consequences could have been given, but because those that have supported me have known that I was struggling and that was not my true self, they are more generous. Those are times that I do not take lightly and work more to bring an understanding of why it is important to better myself from making those mistakes again.

Yet, it can be hard to work towards realizing that I am such an inspiration to others and that it is always important to be grateful yet keep the momentum going towards success. This includes those that are no longer on this earth. Often remembering the impression that I have left upon them inspires me to keep going and to continue to reach for the stars each day no matter what. It can be hard sometimes to keep going when it seems senseless to do so, but there is a reality that it is something that needs to be more real and necessary to be done because their memory keeps me going at times when it is hard to remember why I am doing what I need to do.

It can be hard to accept that I am doing good by doing what I have done in my journey, but it does bring a smile to my eyes when there is recognition to anything that I am recognized for that there are so many people that are not only inspired by my journey but also care and support my advocacy efforts. It could be the simplest of things that just light up my eyes and brighten my day greatly when it seems like it can be a difficult day, it shows that there is a positive aspect in the great lens that I am privileged to be bestowed with.