Through everything that I have experienced in my life, it can be hard to realize that I have more potential than I allow myself to believe. I often disregard how much progress I have made along the way and the capabilities that I bestow, oftentimes because I think of myself as less than.

I have done so much with my life in the past two decades that can be unimaginable to someone with my challenges, yet I often do not think about how challenging they could be. They are just things that happen, and I take them for granted without understanding the work that I had to put into them happening.

I cannot see that there I am capable of much more than I allow myself to believe. I often discount my ability to do things because I do not believe in myself or that someone such as myself should be bestowed the ability to do the things I can do because of my challenges. It often sems like I am not supposed to have things that other people take for granted because of myself being “different.”

I often deflect myself from the ability to understand my potential because doing things that are uncomfortable to me can seem scary to me. I do not want to imagine that I deserve the things that are uncomfortable and come to fruition after breaking the barriers that I break. It is the constant thought that I am messed up and undeserving of things that come like second nature to others.

This has sent me to many pity parties in my lifetime without realizing that I can do much more than I allow myself to believe. There is so much resending doubt because I have allowed myself to believe that I am not worth the things that can be deserving to me. I just cannot see that there is the potential that I have allowed myself to have and as a result I have held myself against advancing my scope of things beyond what I have allowed myself to believe.

Yet, there must be realities and understandings met to accept that I cannot stay where I feel comfortable forever. I cannot continue to wallow in what I will not allow myself to accept and believe that there is potential for me to expand the potential beyond what I allow myself to. I that I am capable of more than I allow myself to believe, yet I know that it is important to fight my fears of anxiety and realize that I can do anything that I allow myself to believe.

In essence, there is a reality that I must accept that I must be willing to move forward by understanding and accepting my potential and putting it to more use by lessening my guard and allowing myself to try new things that will provide me more fulfillment and happiness and less of the same opportunities that I have been accustomed to. I need to move on.