Oftentimes, I allow myself to see the negativity in a situation without allowing myself to realize that there are also benefits that I may not see at that very moment. I know that everything that I experience is not always positive, but I know that I must do better than resonating in the negativity that I often dwell on.

I have come from a good life, but many times it was hard to see that I had potential not because I was provided with the opportunity. It is oftentimes because I have allowed my anxiety to overrule my life and not allow myself to see that there can be potential in things if I step out of my comfort zone and see that there are things beyond what I am not willing to believe.

Continuing to dwell on all the things that I do not think is a promising idea or not being able to see that something good can come out of a situation is only setting me back further in the ability to further my journey in life. My anxiety often thinks about all the things that can go wrong while trying to do new things or see that there is hope beyond what I am daring to dream about.

There were many things in the past few years that I thought I could never do and there have been many changes in the past few months that I would have been unimaginable to believe that I would have been able to go with. There is a reality that things need to be done to survive in today’s world. By thinking negatively and catastrophizing about thins only makes me feel much worse and pits me in a pity-party sort of place.

I put up a literal fence around others because they are intending to hurt or cause harm to me, and I cannot see that there are good people on this earth that want to do good things for and for me. However, because I am unable to take a chance on things that are uncomfortable or intangible to me, I have let go of many other opportunities or understandings that have needed to accept in life. I have made peace with some of them, yet there have been missed opportunities that I have not allowed myself to entertain because the anxiety has allowed me to override what I know I could do and push me and others away from them I deeply regret some of the things in my life and I am working on repairing that as time allows.

Nonetheless, I know that I need to work at seeing past the things that are negative in my eyes when I know deep down, they could be some of the best things that could happen in my life. It along with many other things are what is necessary for me to move forward with my life and stop living in the shell of safety that I have allowed myself to feel comfortable in. I need to get more comfortable with expanding myself more and not keep to myself or think that everything is going to be the worst possible thing to happen in this world. I know that I am an amazing person and I have enormous potential.