As autistic people, we are often easily led to believe things that we are told without being able to see the reality of a situation. It is something that happens among the autistic population because of wanting to be pleased or felt needed and not being able to think for ourselves.

Throughout life, there are many things that have been told to me. Many times, I often did not allow myself to decide for myself how I felt about things that were told to me. I did not allow myself to see how things that were shared with me were not what I truly felt about someone or something. I did not give my brain the benefit of the doubt because of my ability to be someone that was easily relatable and even though I am well educated and able to speak for myself, I was more of a follower and did not form my own opinion on things.

As an autistic person who must navigate the social landscape quite a bit, it can be challenging to navigate strife and stand my ground on how I feel about things. Not being immediately able to draw the response that is true within my heart because of the delays in processing information can allow me to think on my toes and allow myself to fall along with what I am being told to find immediate relief to the strife I am experiencing myself.

Believing what others tell me about things can resonate with me deeply and as such it can deflect my thinking about a situation or circumstance thinking about those things in a negative manner without seeing the total situation at hand. I am often quick to pass judgment to something because it is what I have been led to believe for many years without taking the time to realize the honesty of what is true about the situation at hand.

Slowly, I am realizing to forgive myself for the judgments I had in the past because they were not of my own bringing. There is a reality about which I must think. I really know how a situation has helped me and not what is being told to me because I feel like it can be something that will cause strife or make me feel empowered about something to make me feel envious.

It is always important to have one’s opinion about something, but it is never right to empower it in a negative manner or use it as revenge about something. It is realizing that there is many side to stories and people and as a human adult, it is important to realize that I need to be able to think for myself and allow myself to have my own thought and opinion about things and not allow myself to feed off of negative energy or other falsehoods because it rows energy. In the end, when everything is all said and done, it will be me that has the regret for the things that have happened because of following the wrong path rather than seeing the truth of the situation and how it profoundly affects `me alone.