Sometimes for myself as an autistic person, I can let my negative self-talk get the best of me and can cause it to overrule what I am going through, Even though deep down I know that things are much better than what I want to believe at that very moment, if I allow myself, it can bring my personal morale down into a negative feeling.

I do know despite my many struggles in life that I have had an incredibly positive upbringing. I have had some of the best parents that have always got me the help that I needed to have even if I did not agree with it. That does not mean that my thought processes are always perfect. It can be the fact that there are situations that are not always what I may think are the ones that I would like to see, that I may think that there are better solutions and the situation that I have been handed is not always the fair thing in my eyes. Yet, I do what I need to do to pull myself together and be the best that I can to not cause any strife along the way.

As autistic persons, our brains are often wired differently to see things that we do not think is fair to us and we often only want to see what we want as it provides us a sense of comfort and when that sense of comfort is not met, it can produce negative self-talk as a way to thinking we can get what we want, yet that is not always the case in allowing us to find the easy solution that we desire.

But, allowing the negative self-talk to continuously brew in my head will only allow things to be more complex and frustrating due to the time wasted on the issues that are brewing in my head and allowing them to overrule my brain, even if there is no value in doing so. It can be thoughts and theories that could have happened week, months or even years ago and allowing them to overtake or feelings or thought process into a negative context without allowing our minds to see the positive situations that are in our lives at that very moment.

It has taken a lot of work on my own part to rewire my brain over the past few months after being on track and seeing that there is so much to be grateful and happy for. Yet, negative thoughts appear in my brain, but they do not overrule me in the way that they once did. I recognize them and start to let them go. Sometimes it is easier than other times to do that, yet it is not as severe as it once was to let my negative self-talk consume my head space in the way that it did.

Maybe it is seeing that there were different ways than thinking in the ways that were so strong what could be done to allow myself to experience what I have needed to see in order to experience my independence and allow myself to grow more than what I could believe or see that things do change more than the misconceptions that I allowed myself to believe. It is allowing me to see that the positives are way better than the negatives in my life. While this may not be the case for everyone, it is known that I am safe and that I need to continue to see beyond the scope of negativity and see the positive.