In recent weeks, I have been working on learning how to survive the day in a healthy manner and not get back into my old unhealthy traits, so I do not falter back to the old ways of my surviving to live and falling off course.

 One of my greatest vices during the past five years, besides the fact that I was not being adherent to my medication was the fact that I was not understanding my medication and how it worked. Now that I have understood that and knowing when to take it so I know how it will work for me, it is also knowing that I must stay awake through the day in order to be cognizant of the necessity of taking the one pill that I have been struggling with for the past few years.

While realizing this, I had realized that I needed to find things to occupy myself, this was counteracting the fact I was experiencing autistic burnout. This may have very well been the case looking back to last year when things were contentious and my anxiety was greatly heightened, but with the situations that have greatly been resolved along with me understanding the Importance of being completely adherent to all my medicines, I am now quite regulated and now realize the Importance of staying engaged and how beneficial it is to my mental health.

So, after so many anxieties have been relieved for me and things are as “normal” seems to finally be creating itself into its identity in my independence, what does that look like? Well, that is what I am trying to figure out for myself. I do realize the importance of having to be active outside of my home and that there still must be time to spend within my home to regroup my life to what it is going to be going forward.

It is something that I must figure out for myself and even realize what my new special interests are because they too have changed over the past few years. It is learning how to do things like being able to find videos and podcasts that are enjoyable and that will keep me entertained in the process. It is finding the right thing to do to fill the void along with understanding the need to time in and practice those transitions with which I have long struggled.

There is so much I can be doing, yet there must be things that keep me entertained and out of trouble with the kitchen or bedroom, so I do not reserve to doing things that I do not want to do. It is just finding what those things are and putting them into practice so I can live my best life possible and not keep going back to the unhealthy old habits that I have gotten used to over the years.

In the end, I will figure out this like anything else like I want to experience but I know that I need to keep doing what I am doing instead of the things that haven’t worked out for me over the years and having the positive attitude that I have had going forward.