After nearly have a decade of not caring for my mental health challenges continuously, I have learned through my experience that it has been important more than ever to pick up the pieces from where I had initially left my parents’ house and start to keep the things necessary to take care of my mental health while trying to define my own independence.

In the past five years, there have been a lot of negative things that have occurred as far as my mental health has gone. Until last week it has been a constant struggle of difficulties from doing things that I know that I should have never done in the first place. The initial urges came into place a decade ago and once they happened when I lived on my own, they were never reeled back in even after many years of disappointment.

But, through many experiences last week and over the weekend, I realized that my time is narrowing out to get myself together and that Is essential more than ever to just do want I need to do to get myself back on track for the last time. The reality is that I never got to establish a grounded routine for myself and see how that would work in the life that it is now. So much has happened since then, especially in the past year or so where so many things have changed to what I have long expected.

There will be also many changes this year that are going to require me to be my best and be there for others as they expect me to do because they see the talented and gifted side of me who knows how to care for myself and not someone who does not as I have been doing where others always have to be on edge of how I am going to react to things.

The sign has been given to realize that I have for what I feel will be one of the last opportunities to make things happen in the right way for me to where I can see my best potential and realize where I need to be in this world compared to the slippery slope that I was on and understanding the necessity of having to tool things in my life to work in a manner that best works for me. It is realizing that some things that I did when I was not my best was in turn hurting me and not helping my mental health and that I needed to do things that I know are beneficial for me to be mentally well.

Throughout the past few years, things have not been so great, and it was ironic that I did not have any dire consequences or extended myself any further than knowing what I was supposed to. It was realizing that I too had to walk on eggshells because I seriously knew what I was doing was deliberate in nature and I should have done what was necessary to rectify the situation sooner.

I am now working towards bettering my mental health by working on it and tackling on the issues head on because I am now realizing that their consequences for not caring for it and that things like medication, sleep and routines are essential for everyone and for me to have an everyday life. I will never know why I did the things I did. Whatever I did, I did, and I realize now, more than ever, that I must move on from my mistakes, but use it as a learning experience to not go down the path that I have continued to go down for an exceptionally long time. It is important to understand that caring for my mental health must always be a priority in my life.