Since being while living independently over the course of the past five years, I have not always been able to be my best. I have not always made the best decisions when it comes to taking care of myself. It has always been known that I need to do things that are essential for caring for my mental health like taking my medication. There has come a point in my life that medication is necessary every day in order to remain successful in my life.

Through many years of trial and error even after it has been proven for decades that the medication, I have always been on has worked for me, there had been continual doubt and disregard for not caring for myself when I needed to. When living independently, there is often a responsibility for me to take my medication and it has been something most times that has been a struggle. But in the end, I know it is what is necessary for me to be successful in my life.

There are those times when I do fall into the traps of excessively sleeping without realizing that I should take my medication and go to bed because my sense of pride kicks in thinking that I am a child for needing to go to bed so early in the evening. However, my routine sometimes requires me to get up in the morning as I enjoy my day and as such, I need adequate sleep-in order to function at full capacity. Many times, I have such a disregard for the need to be cognizance of overall care, including sleep, which medication aids in winding me down from the day.

Understanding the necessity of medication took pieces for it to come together. First understanding that the mood stabilizer is by all means always essential, and it should never be missed and if so taken at the nearest interval. However, the medication that I have been struggling the most with has taken me longer to understand. Eventually it came to my point that I believed that it was needed every so often, then when I had to do important things like work and day services, then finally and most importantly, I had to understand that it is needed everyday when I could tell more and more between the differences in what was to be with me and what was not.

Finally being able to accept and understand that medication and sleep are essential and everyday things and should never be forgotten, I can start to put the issue behind me and realize that I need to work on being more independent and work towards what is more necessary in my life and not keep battling back and forth between sleep and medicine because I know that both are essential and work hand in hand in keeping me well. They help in wanting me want to do things that I have enjoyed, and I know that I need to do them and get back into them, even though I had continued to believe that there was something that not taking the medication was helping me do versus following the same course. Knowing that it is essential Is something that I hopefully have grasped of once and for all.