There comes a time when it becomes necessary to adjust the routine of an autistic person to align with that of what is expected of others or what is necessary for doing the things that is necessary to do the things that are needed to be independent. It can be hard to accept that it requires a person to be flexible and understand there needs to be ‘wiggle room’ in something that does not normally occur.

A reality in the world is when it must be understood that not everything can happen according to the plan of what is expected. It will cause the individual to want to stray away from other activities that are necessary out of fear that they will not be ready in enough time to do all the activities that they want to do. However, having reassurance that there will indeed be enough time will go a long way in assuring that there will be enough time to do all that they want to do.

There are times of the year, especially the holidays and special occasions that can be overstimulating to the autistic person added with schedules that are quite different that can surmount a great sense of fear that they will not be able to do all that they want to do in their day or enjoy all the things of their celebrations. There is also a need to get back to routine when the opportunity presents itself so that there is not too much time being of course and things happen to make challenges worse than they need to be.

Part of being an adult and having to follow through with a routine is the fact that you must adjust it to what is necessary especially when it comes to things that are dependent on living independently like bringing home a paycheck and other things that are required with being an adult. It can be hard to admit that there needs to a point where becoming an adult is necessary for living and that you must put down the Christmas gifts and do adult-like things instead of having time to yourself. However, when you have had several days before Christmas to do so such as I and the way that this holiday schedule is, I chose to spend the holiday the way that I did, and I cannot make a change to the way that I did it.

Would there have been different ways that I would have spent my break? Most definitely! But what has happened has happened and it was quite the learning curve for me, and I must understand that it is the way that it was and there is no going back from the choices that I have made. They weren’t wise choices, but I hope that the negative ones are hopefully the last time that I have to face them and I realize that I finally need to do what I need to do in order to stay in line and not continually get off course as I have been the last several years that gets me off the routine and causes me to miss out on things or not be able to use my time more wisely.

I am hoping that my holiday break has given me the opportunity to realize that I need to stop wasting my time doing something that just isn’t wise and realize that I need to work on being more of an adult and do what is right for me by adhering to my wellness requirements and doing what is right for me instead of believing things that just aren’t true. No matter what I have done in the past, it has never been proved to work positively for me. Others eventually get the hint. Therefore, I have recovered again and hopefully for the last time that I will finally get the hint of how much I have not taken care of myself and had a decent holiday break. I must understand that I need to take care of myself once and for all and not stop at the silly stuff that I keep playing around with having within myself. I am nearing my thirties and I need to just act as such.

Hoping for a Merry Christmas and the fact that I am finally understanding what I need to do to move past this hump that has been bothering me for so long by finally understanding what I need to do.