There comes a time when you realize that change as hard as it can seem to go through can be one of the better things that could happen to make one of the simplest things become much simpler and lessen anxiety and make you see that there is life beyond where you presently are.

Being the autistic person that I am, there can be some great comfort in knowing things that you had were always there, but nothing in life is guaranteed and things can happen where they are no longer there and therefore you must endure a change. There is of course a defensive part of oneself where there is hesitation to follow through with the change and not be a part of it. However, there is also a part, where in my situation, it has become a necessity for me to continue living the life that I needed to live.

While the beginning of the process can have its struggles and issues, as they were very minor in this situation, it can allow you to see that the change can also provide you with an opportunity that you never thought that you had. In fact, they had been there for many years, but because I had a premise about the quality of them, I had been very reluctant to use the services that are provided to me. Indeed, there has and still been a cloud of stigma about what I had to endure, and it did resonate with me greatly, but I was assured that things did change and in fact they the entity has been doing their best to rebuild their image and it can be seen publicly.

As much as I had known that I still had great reluctance to change, however I knew that to keep the things in place that I like to, it was a necessity to follow through with the change. It really wasn’t as bad as it seemed to be as many others that I had known had been doing this for at least a decade. They too were forced to make a change to keep doing what they knew that they needed to do. As much as my brain wanted me not to follow through with this big change, it was something that I knew that I had to follow through with and see how it worked out.

Just like most of the things that I do in my life, once I do them, I excel at them. This I have seen commonly happens to autistic people over time because of not only their resistance to change but the fact that there is a rush of adrenaline and cortisol to the brain, and it can produce a lot of energy that would need to be expelled.

As energy producing as this recent change has been, it has provided me with the light that I needed to see that is another resource that will bring stability to my life and allow me to grow even more. For the last several years, I had been stuck in a very negative rut believing that I was stuck in the moment that I currently was in without an opportunity to be more independent. Because things were done in-house for so long, it did not allow me to see that even though I knew that there are resources for increasing my independence, I was very reluctant to do so because there was no pressure to do so.

It can be good to be comfortable with something that provides oneself with predictability and routine, but it can also be what keeps someone too comfortable as it was for me. I had always believed that things were going to be the way that they were, and things were going to change in a more negative way. However, seeing that things are much better than I perceived, I can see that there is an opportunity to expand myself beyond where I currently am, of course when I am ready and with the proper planning. Therefore, change CAN be a good thing at times and like anything I have hesitancy to do, once I do it, I flourish at it greatly and can’t imagine how I even lived without it.  Change and be hard when you think of it, but if you give it a chance as I did, it may provide you with the opportunities that you never thought you would ever think you could do or have in your life.