In life, things happen, and we have misconceptions about what things are and do. This has been the battle that I have been facing with my medication for many years. But to realize that it does have a certain side effect cannot be done unless there is certain documentation and tests on my end in order to advocate for what needs to be changed or just plain understood.

For most of the time that I have lived on my own I have been fighting this fight if indeed a particular medication for a side effect has been a sideliner in my daily life. It never was previously, but life changes and we do not at times want to admit when things change, that it may change too, and no one may understand but you. There is a time when you must be serious about documenting what is needed and be able to use your voice to advocate for what is required.

But what if really there is the fact that it is not doing totally what you think it does. Maybe there has been a reality that in fact you do need to catch up on what the principal side effect of the medication is intended to do and there becomes a point where you are finally caught up. It can seem useless to realize that you need to keep going on the regimen because you want to blame it for being the way that you may not want to be. But there must be an actualization that after many years of playing around with it there must be a reality that you do need to catch up on things like sleep.

Having the misconception that the medication “knocks you out” cannot be the fact that solely on the medication. It can be the fact that you are just burnt out from the day’s activities, and you just need to relax and recharge. I can recall times as a youth when I took it way too early and I was able to remain awake for quite a while, but nowadays I think that I just have such a relationship with it that it can be quite sour if I allow it to be.

The reality is that I need to develop the relationship that the medication has always been intended to help me and not hurt me. It is the fact that it has been related so much to facts of past behavior and not other needs that it provides during an extended release. It is also the fact that In the past I have not been as overloaded as I am now and things are more overwhelming now than they have been for some time.

It is part of being an adult and understanding that I need to document the things that I feel that are affecting my daily life and then present my case that in fact that these things are happening or indeed it is the fact that I haven’t been doing what has been necessary all along. It is what I must do to chart the course and learn how to put this issue to rest once and for all after over five years of battling the battle that never seems to end in its own way.

There has to come a point to realize that there are times where it needs be factual in nature and actually do what is right for once and see if something is really doing what you really think it is doing or the fact that you just needed to recharge after years of not doing what you needed to do all along. It may seem unorthodox along the way of when you have needed to recharge along the way from many years of not caring for yourself, but there has to come a point in life that you just need to follow through to the letter whether or not you have this misconception about something and just see whether or not you are really thinking about it or the fact that something intended to do what its supposed to do is actually doing what it is supposed to do in the first place and maybe you just need to take care of yourself after not doing so for several years. It is part of being an adult and doing what is right for you and knowing that you just need to finally put this issue to rest for once.