Through my journey of life, it is learning that we learn to grow in our very own way. It may at times seem unorthodox to others the way that we do it, but there is something that just makes it “click” that makes us see that we need to do the things that we need to do to be well.

When you live independently and especially as you have mental health and autistic challenges, there is no instruction manual as to how you do things along the way. Without a doubt, there are going to happen along the way, and indeed they have. But giving up is never an option. When you are slammed with another whammy in life’s obstacles, you must keep going and do your best.

Maybe, that obstacle hits you because of the simple fact that you need to have something that you have been struggling with since independence be there to help you maintain composure and be there to help regulate yourself along the way. Everything happens in the way that it does for a reason, and it makes you realize that there needs to be a time to be serious about caring about yourself so that you can be the adult that you need to be.

Sometimes, it is what you need to know that is important to you, such as building a routine that you have needed all along this journey of independence. I personally know that I can do what is necessary for me to function in society, but I know that now that needs to be more steadily due to the upcoming changes in the way that my routine is pending to change. It is not something that I want, but it is what indeed is necessary for me to understand that I need to have some sort of routine in my life.

Change can be a good thing in some ways, even if it may not seem so in the best interests of me in the beginning. But I must work towards giving myself a chance to be truly independent and learn and grow to be more of an adult without being by the side of someone who is staff from a program. They will be assisting, but I must do my best to maintain composure and be my best self during the process.

I do know that it is not going to be easy, but I need to be my best for my peers and be the adult that I know that I can be for once and do what is right for myself to be well so I can function in society. If I want to be a leading example, then I need to be that example and do what is expected and to follow through with what is needed to live life to my fullest potential.

The reality is that I am stronger than I put myself up to be. I know I can conquer so much if I allow myself to. Simply, my fear-driven anxiety greatly holds me back from doing so much in life, but doing what I need to do to be well will open myself up to more opportunities to be a more successful person. It may be the answer that I need to be successful in life and do the things that I want to do until I can explore more possibilities in life.

I cannot get further in life unless I properly care for myself. This is something that I have been holding off, mostly in fear, for some time. Therefore, it is important to understand the necessity that I must do what I can to care for myself to endure the things that life can be messy or challenging. Life has a bunch of variables, and they can be challenging if I am not able to understand what I need to do to care for myself.

I think that after several years of not caring for myself that I finally “get” the need to care for myself because my days will be filled with more variables than ever before and I need to realize that when things go astray in life, that there are no do-overs. I need to be my best self every day and not when I feel like I want to. I must want to be my best self-everyday so I can live life to my fullest potential.