After a weekend of mostly ruminating about things that are out of my control, I have seemed to knock my way out of it for one reason or another. Sometimes, ruminating can run deep in my mind, and it can be very difficult to get out of the thought track that I am in for one reason or another. But I know that I have a lot that I can see as good in the day and need to continue to count my blessings for such.

There is so much good in my life that I can’t imagine life without certain things in my life. Yet the small things that I am thankful for are the same thing that I want to run away from because there is a piece of it that seems uncomfortable or challenging for one reason or another. It is that I cannot be open or receptive to seeing things in a different light or be welcoming to other people that are doing things that are needed.

Over the past few days, I have been ruminating about a situation that is going to be slightly different than it normally is. It has in my own mind made me think differently than what the outside world sees me thinking about something. I know that it is unhealthy for me to think about it constantly or that doing what my brain wants to do, such as running away from it is not going to help the situation, especially after I have done all the hard work of getting myself back on track after many years of being on the decline.

Is thinking about it today going to change anything about the situation that I must face? No. So why do I consume my life with it so much that it deeply brings me down and out? There is essentially no reason to allow myself to consume my life with the things that have no merit anymore and be willing to change with the rest of the world as it is essential for me to do so, even as hard as change is for me, it may be even for the better.

Today is a new day, by allowing the misconceptions of the way things were or are going to be to consume my brain is not going to do anything to help me today. I must accept that I must move on from the way that things are and be willing to accept that what happened then was history. Bringing up the way things were in the past is not going to make the situation any better or make a difference in the future to how things are going to be.

Moreso, it is the weekend and while I allowed myself to have the history of things consume my headspace for a majority of the weekend, the fact is that I have two days left before I must face the new situation. Allowing myself to continue to think about it is not going to change anything about it, nor is it going to do anything to improve my mental health. I must do what is necessary to keep myself out of that pit of rumination and move forward and focus on the good in life instead of allowing this very small thing to consume my headspace constantly.

Life has been good for me, and I need to be grateful for the day that I have. If I get challenged by these thoughts, then I need to see past the challenge and realize that I need to see that things are necessary and no matter what, I am a strong person and can get through the challenge that I must face, but bringing up the way that it used to be is not going to do anything but make it worse and my life more challenging like it has been the past few days.

Today is a new day, I need to be grateful and move forward from the past two days and see that there is good in today and everyday by allowing myself to focus on the good energy in my life and not allowing myself to relive those thoughts of the past that are not doing any good for me. It is a new day; a new mindset and I need to live it as such.