My life nowadays has gotten better, but today, I am in a state of wanting to flee from things I must do.

It’s not like it’s anything new, it’s a different schedule, the staff I consider my safety net won’t be there.

But I am medicated, decaffeinated, so I know that I just need to fight the thoughts of wanting to flee from it.

I need to be there, it’s raining today. Staying home is not healthy and I know it!

Being home will result in negative behaviors and habits occurring and I don’t need it in my life!

Once I get out the door and, in the van, I will be fine, and the thoughts will be eliminated.

It’s just those pre-event jitters that I get from time to time. I am stronger than I thought.

I am resilient, inspirational and can do anything that I put my mind to!

It is being kind to my mind, because I know that I know that I can be my best if I do what is right.

After a little while, I will be able to breathe better and at the end of the day much better!

I know I am doing much better at fighting the thoughts of fleeing from things I must do.

For it is part of adulting and I know that I must do it and be my best!

It will be OK!