I took this selfie 4 years ago today.

It was just a few days after a behavior that I was doing came out in therapy and I claimed to be working on it.

But I wasn’t. I was masking myself from it. Far from where I needed to be.

I was giving my word that day during a hike to a place where faith was practiced and reflected.

Yet, life was anywhere far from it.

These last 4 years, I and the world have been through so much, but keeping the faith has been what has kept me grounded at my worst.

Now that I have come clean about everything and have been involving my parents in my life, including my mental health treatment, things are better.

It is also accepting the things that I never wanted to accept in my life. Being honest is key.

Because I am giving others the trust that I am doing what is necessary to be well.

I now know that I cannot let them down. Because many of them experienced where I was three weeks ago.

It taught me valuable lessons and that is that trust goes a long way.

Being faithful is what is helping me get through the challenging times that I am facing now.

They are not as bad as they could be, and I remember that daily.

There has been temptation to go to the old ways many times over the past few weeks.

Yet, I keep on my word because I know it is the right way to go to maintain my well-being.

While things still aren’t perfect. I know my faith will get me to where I need to be.

I may seem preachy about it, but I know it is what has saved me time again and again from more tragic outcomes.

Having faith and giving others my trust that I am doing what is necessary to be well is key in my life.