Recently, it has seemed like life has breezed by for one reason or another. I am at a good point in my life But deep down it can be hard to accept that I have indeed made the progress that I have made and to for once be proud of myself for the achievements that I had made.

It’s not like making the progress has indeed been challenging, it has been by doing the things that are basically common sense and hopefully after many years will start to send me in a better direction, it seems to be getting that way and I am feeling good about myself for once. It can be hard to accept that it is OK to feel good about myself and the work that I have put towards bettering myself. I know that I am a smart and intelligent human being and indeed can do many things in life that I indeed put my mind to because I allow myself to mature and grow more and more every day.

The fact of being proud is mostly for my personal gain and not as a tactic to cause revenge at others for being less fortunate or not having the luck that I have. Everyone grows and matures in their own way and I am the first one that can testify to the fact that you have to be patient with yourself and learn to grow more and more with life as I can allow myself to be more of the man that I want to be. It can at times seem strange that I am indeed growing more and more as time goes on in my life, but I do need to count the blessings in my life because I know I am extremely blessed.

And again, that is not putting down anyone else, but it is the simple fact that I had to discover and accept the fact that I need to be thankful for the opportunities that are provided in my life instead of constantly living in a constant state of negativity pointing out everything wrong with my life when in fact there are many things that are going for me and that many others look up to me and are proud of the progress that I have made and continue to make over the years kind of makes me proud two, although I would never openly admit that fact. 

It can oftentimes be difficult to allow myself to open up and be proud of the progress that I have made over the years. It is not that I ignore that I have indeed made progress, to me it just seems as what is needed to be done in life to survive in a world that oftentimes is not met to be accommodating of my needs. Nonetheless, I somehow manage to get through the parts of my life that can be more challenging by garnering the skill of autistic masking along with using the coping skills and defense mechanisms needed to get through the day. 

For many years, I had many doubts about my stance in life and was constantly down on myself and said many things that were untrue and hurtful. However, many times, I have held myself together and got through the challenging times and eventually, it has paid off in dividends and I am slowly becoming the person that I want to be, little by little, day by day and sometimes hour by hour, but I know that I am so worth it because I have been through so much in my life, even if it hasn’t been easy at times, I have never given up I am proud of the human being that I am and am even looking forward to a brighter future ahead as I learn to grow even more as I continue to be more happier and prouder of myself.