As small as progress seems to be going lately, there has been some moving forward in the weight loss department in developing more of a healthy lifestyle. Thus, there has been progress made on the scale and as such, weight has been dropping.

It has been by making the simplest of changes. One major thing is that I am not a member of the “clean plate club”, meaning that I do not eat just because it is there. When I no longer want something, I just disregard the item or put it away. This has always been hard for me to do, but I have accepted the fact of why would I continue to eat something that I no longer have interest in and eventually be disgusted physically because I overate something that was unnecessary to do.

There has also been more of an interest in things other than food. When I am bored, food is not the first thing that I think of, instead I seek other things that entertain me that are not connected to food. For the longest time I had used food to fill an emotional void of being lonely, but I had to come to terms that are unhealthy for me and do nothing in the long run to solve the problem at hand, it only extends the issue and eventually causes more guilt and disgust. I had to learn to focus my needs elsewhere when I am seeking the emotional void from things that I cannot control.

Seeing the progress on the scale by weight dropping over the past month brings a smile to my face because after years of fluctuating back and forth, it seems to be heading in a better direction, There is validation in this because I am actually doing the right things both physically and mentally for a change instead of not taking care of my mental health for once in several years. I want to do things instead of lacking interest or making excuses about things. 

It is having the motivation to move forward, having balanced meals, only eating when hungry instead of just filling the void mindlessly because I am bored and need to fill my hands with something other than food. There is more to life than food. It may feel good initially, but eventually it causes effects, at least for me that are unpleasant. I would rather not feel those effects that cause me discomfort and unease.

It has been a long road that I have wanted to point myself in a direction for the better, It has always seemed that I was heading in a downward spiral with my weight and physical health and I was very hopeless about whether I would break the cycle of emotional and mindless eating and replace the habits with something more healthier. It had to register in my head that there was not going to be a change unless I made the decision to change my way of thinking and my relationship about food into a more positive way of thinking instead of the same old bad habits that I have been experiencing for decades.

It is hopefully with a better mindset that I am ready to put the past behind me and move on to bigger and better things that I can enjoy life so much better than I have been for the longest time. As I said, you have to have the willingness to move forward and decide to make the changes or they will never happen.