In my life, there are times when my brain wants me to avoid a situation or going through the motions because it thinks as if the worst possible thing could happen and dysregulates me to the point I avoid the situation. However, I have realized that it is important for me to muster the courage and push myself through the challenges my brain is making for me.

There are times my brain just only thinks one way, that a routine or regimen cannot be altered because I only see it the way that I think I want to. However, over time , I am accepting the fact that there are indeed other options and if I am patient and allow myself the grace and be patient with myself to make things work, that I can accept maybe changing up my routine and allowing them to work for me.

I think more often than not about the things I want to do instead of the things that I need to do. This can include setting priorities for my own benefit and not doing what I know can be healthy for me because it is what I think is the better choice, although there are healthier things like going to day program or work where I can interact with others and even those outside of my family because isolation can be a struggle if do address it so I do not ruminate excessively about things that I have no control of or that I perceive that are negative.

It means sometimes not allowing myself to retreat to my bedroom when it is unhealthy to do so. This is different from when I am overloaded from the day of massive activity. Generally this is out of pure boredom and I cannot shift my priorities to where they need to be so that i do not ruminate and start the vicious cycle of negativity.

While the thought train is being brought on by anxiety and overreacting whether something indeed will be overloading when in fact it will not be. The anxiety is telling me that it will be bad, even if I know what to expect in the process of doing something or that there is a change in the day’s routine. It is also the fact that we commit that we are or need to be somewhere for something, that we do not cancel because our brain is telling us that we need to run away from the bearing problem. It means that I have to fight through the challenging negative thoughts and just do what I need to do .

It means going through the motions and accepting the fact that there may be unpleasantness or unknown challenges to what you need to do, but it takes pushing myself out the door because you just may experience no challenges or something beneficial to what you are asked to do or going through with your plans. It is realizing that it is just my brain overreacting and overthinking the worst possible scenario in something, but it is better if I actually think if what I am thinking is  valid, tell those thoughts to stop and go through what is needed to happen because in the end, I will be proud of the fact that I did it and in the long run it has become a necessary thing.