Sometimes, there is a thought that the pattern that I experience never changes.

Everyone has negative thoughts about one thing or another and there are times I quip about things.

Sometimes I do not think what I am really thinking around those I trust. It passes my lips too fast.

Like it is a way to vie for attention as if I need some sort of validation regress my progress.

Ultimately, I know that is not the answer and I have to do what is right for what is needed.

It is the fact of life that it is a part of this thing called adulthood.

If I want to have the opportunity to have the things in my life, then I must do what is necessary.

Even if there are small, snaps that tell me differently.

It is known that isolating has a much more tragic effect than it is led on to.

I know that. I read about those that do not have the motivation to get out the door at all.

It is that that makes me want to have a different perspective on things today.

Set some goals for the week, one of them taking more of an effort to take care of my appearance.

It may seem small in nature, but in the grand scheme of things it is what is needed to make me feel good about myself.

It is fighting the struggles that autism brings when having to try to look good in my own way.

It may be realizing that I need to do what is necessary to take care of myself to work on being healthier.

I know that I am reaching the point where I am on borrowed time for it to be easier to be healthier.

So, I start making the small changes to feel good about myself as a way of building that path of progress.

It is slowly changing the pattern that I once had for a better destination than where I was headed.

It is important to see the progress and the change of patterns because they do matter.

It brings this whole other person out of me that cares and wants to do what he needs to do.

Without feeling forced or coerced to do it. Because I want to.

Changing the pattern.