Finally after nearly five years of being independent, I have turned the corner in the right direction and finally at a point where I am living my best life by doing what is best for me after years of doing what was not the best and finally having a reality check that kind of woke me up.

It has finally gotten to the point that I am finally satisfied with being independent and understanding that this is the way life is in the present moment. It is knowing that life is not at all bad, that even as I face small challenges, as long as I pull myself together from them, I will be just fine and will function in society. It is knowing that I am at the point that I can finally breathe a sigh of relief and understand that I am doing what is needed for my mental wellbeing and am finally on the right track.

Nothing is ever perfect in life and it can never be. I manage well in life and am proud of myself for the whole package that comes with me. It has taken me a long time to get to that point and I know that there are people that see me being my best self and they like that part of me. That is part of what keeps me wanting to do my best and not go down that drastic path that I once did when I was first getting my feet wet at living on my own.

It is knowing that others like me when I am well and I can do the same things when I am not myself when I am well. It took all those years to bust those myths I had about myself because my brain was flawed about them and I had to discover that in myself and that I am just fine the way that I am and that taking care of myself is important to functioning in society and a world that is just not made for me.

It is accepting the things that come with my challenges and understanding that I need to make time to do the things I need to do in order to be well, even if they may not be what I would want to be at that time. In the end it is knowing that I will be a much happier person after doing what is necessary in order to take care of myself. There is no health without mental health!

It is knowing that there are others that appreciate me for fighting the challenges that I have fought to get to this point and not giving up or having to revert back or losing my independence or being heavily medicated because of noncompliance to societal norms. It is accepting all of my challenges as they come and understanding that they are part of my package deal.

Life will always throw curveballs at us, that is just a simple fact. It is overcoming those challenges and thriving and living the best life that you can in order to be your best self and fight the fighters who think you cannot do things in the way that may not work for you. Maybe you need to find the way that it works for you and be accepting of what life is for you. 

There are going to be doubters, haters, skeptics, you name it, but in the end you just need to do what you need to do in order to live your best life to thrive in the world you make for yourself, whatever that may be. It does not have to be understood by those that do not understand, it is your life and you have to live it, that is the crux of the biscuit and understanding. Everyone deserves to live their best life and I have finally understood that in myself and am finally happy.