Often my mind wanders thinking about things that can turn into a ruminating or looping nature. Sometimes these thoughts become overwhelming. I allow myself to entertain and believe them for what they are. They are not the case anymore and are no longer valid. Things are more grounded and settled this year about these thoughts. I have to start avoiding entertaining them. I must focus on the better things in my life.

When thing happen in autistic people like they have in me and have made feel hurt as I have in the past by allowing my mind to wander and allow myself to believe what I allow the thought that I am thinking is wanting me to entertain a thought that is no longer reality to stay with me and believe that I need to dwell ruminate and think about scenarios in my ind where I there was potential to use it, I have to start to not pay attention to it because there is the reality that I can no longer hurt from it anymore as there is no reason for that thought to serve me in any way,

I know deep down I have had to let go of what I used to believe. Those beliefs are no longer true or valid. Humans are allowed to make mistakes. They need things to be a certain way just as much as we do in our autistic minds. We often think we have to be rigid. We believe things must be the way we want or think they need to be. But this can’t be the case and doesn’t have to be. It takes facing reality and knowing that we are safe and need not to worry anymore. It also means knowing how we can help ourselves during difficult times. Our brains want us to dwell on what isn’t valid or no longer exists. We need to focus on things that make us feel good. These things should uplift us instead of hurting us.

I am no longer overstimulated by thoughts that hurt me as they once did. I have improved by using my self-advocacy skills to communicate with those around me. This ensures that they understand how the situation makes me feel. Having the ability to relate my feelings to the corresponding words helps too. That has been beneficial in the past. Now, it is even better for me. I avoid overreacting like I did before. I learned it is easier to express what I need to say directly. This prevents causing a scene that no one wants. It avoids unwanted consequences.

I know that I can overcome my mind wandering to where it does not belong. It just takes doing the hard work that is necessary. I need to get out of the old ruts. I was allowing my brain to entertain just what is no longer true. These things have no weight to what I am really feeling. It takes doing what is right from the beginning. I know this. Being honest and doing what is right consistently stops things from getting as bad as they can be.