Deep down when times are tough, I know that I can be the best person that I can be. It can be hard to see that sometimes. Picking myself up and doing what I need to do to be my best is challenging. Still, I can do it because I know that it is necessary for me. It is also essential for the many people who look up to me. They admire what I have been through and how I have led the way through so many tough situations. I have overcome many obstacles by doing what was needed and being resilient in difficult times.

Without a doubt there are moments when I fall down and out on myself. The ruminations can overtake me if I allow them to. Sometimes they speak louder than what I can think of doing. I know I need to act. Eventually, I know that things will get better. Those thoughts will pass if I start on the right path. I need to work my way out of those thoughts. They are just thoughts that often are not valid or not even true, but my mind believes that they are.

I am slowly working away from them. The reality is that the way things are now is much better since they happened. It is better than I want to believe sometimes. While things are not often what they seem, they are enough to keep me going. This lets me overlook the negativity in my mind. That negativity brews when things were not as nice for me. I want to turn to the old ways that I think they should be. But, in reality, they are much better, and I need to start to live in the here and now. I should not want to make right what once was. I feel like terrorizing others for things I believe should have been. I need to understand that they were never what I imagined. They certainly would not have been worse than I led myself to think.

The reality is that there are so many good things about me. These qualities allow me to be the person I know I can be. Everyone else knows this too. This happens without that negative nonsense getting in the way. I know it is best to put the past to rest. Bringing it back time and time again is only going to make me feel bad. Deep down I like the way that things are now. They are good for me, even when I struggle. These struggles do not compare to the difficulties of the past. The past made my life difficult and sent me into disaster, even though I was unwilling to see it.

I know deep down that I can overcome the many struggles I face. I will do this by focusing on the good things about the here and now. I must continue to put the past aside. These struggles keep me held in the past, which no longer serves me in the way that it needs to. Trying to get payback or make someone feel something that is not right is not going to do anything either. I have started to learn that I need to move on. I want to be the person that I know I can be. I do this by looking at what makes me a good person. I will do the things that make me the person that others know I can be.