Monster

Sometimes we must realize that what was done was done and I cannot change the events that happened.

The way things went down may have made us see the flaws in what I know we need to do to prevent things like that from happening to us again.

It brings out the monster in me that we don’t like. Others get scared and frightened for my safety.

I get argumentative, hostile, aggressive, moody, angry, and resentful, all in the package deal.

None of the above feelings I find pleasure in, rather I hate them.

I have known this is a problem for me and yet for years and years, I know of moments where the monster in me comes out and lashes its now verbal fury.

I am not proud of myself in those rough moments.

Yet, there is a silver lining in those moments.

There are those seasoned troopers that want to extend themselves and work to divert me from the angst of the situation.

While, sometimes what I did was not perfect or the best, there is somewhat the light at the end of the tunnel.

The misery comes to an end, and I learn from being the monster that there are teaching moments that I know I need to do what I need to do to be well.

The past is the past, and we cannot change that, but what we must do is move on and work to make sure that we are doing the right things to prevent the monster from coming out again.

We shall overcome and can and will do what we need to do to be well and better from this past situation.