For several years since living on my own, I have fought the reality of needing a particular medication. I did this for reasons that I did not want to allow myself to believe. After many years of fighting the same old fight, there were a couple of really bad fights. These struggles made me see that it was better to follow the orders for my medication exactly as prescribed. The prescriptions have been proven to work in one fashion or another for decades. I realized what I did was wrong. I had to believe in myself. If I knew I did what was right, possibilities open up. I needed to work at making these things happen.

Literature indicated that 30 to 50 percent of people who use medicines do not use them as directed. This causes increased hospitalizations and doctor visits. It also results in lost wages and changed prescriptions. These issues cost Americans over $100 Billion each year. While I was saved from many detrimental things happening, I realized that what I was doing was wrong. I was being dishonest. That, in itself, was a sin. I have asked God for forgiveness for my actions. I knew that in 2026 and beyond I never wanted to get into that place again. There was no reason to be doing the things that I did in the first place. Everyone knew, and it caused them to become scared and concerned for my well-being.

I began to understand that things were better when I was fully medicated. I realized the dangers of not taking them exactly as directed. I finally saw the reality that those around me knew. I was doing what I was not supposed to. While I was hurting myself, I was also causing fear and concern for them. I had to be honest with myself. I realized that my feelings were not how I was supposed to feel. It wasn’t normal to experience the events happening in my life. I had to do what was necessary for the right reasons. If I had thought correctly about adhering to my medication, I would have achieved what I wanted. Then it have been possible. Within time what I had long thought was impossible was possible and did happen.

I started to think that what I believed or not happen actually worked. I allowed myself to think it was possible. I realized it work if the right things happened as they should. Just because you read something and believe it’s impossible, doesn’t mean it is. You must put in the effort and take the necessary steps to see if your wish can become a reality. Make the effort before rushing to judgment and dismissing it because you think it won’t happen.

It’s hard to believe all that I suffered to go through. If I had put my mind to what I wanted, it actually can happen without any significant change. In some ways, I think it was meant to be. I seem to never go down that road again. I traveled that road the last several years. Things are working for reasons they need to be. It takes doing the hard work before making sudden decisions. I had made sudden decisions without consulting through the proper channels.