Often, I am under the impression that there is never enough time to do what I want to do. It can hold me back from taking the medication. I struggled with it for many years before I understood its value in my treatment. Once I understood how important it was to take all my medications as prescribed, I learned the significance. Then I realized that there is more time than what I allow myself to believe.

Time has always been a factor of my life. I was very focused on it growing up and still am to a point today. It is something that I focus on. When I am focused on it, I am doing mentally well. But there have been times when it escaped me. I focused on what I was interested in and not the need to take care of myself. I eventually had to learn that rest and relaxation is just as productive. It is as productive as doing something that takes energy and effort to do.

While I lived with my parents, they allowed me to sleep in as long as I wanted. Still, I had to be up most of the day. This was necessary to adhere completely to my medication regimen. Now seeing the need to do so, I now have put the necessary safeguards in place to not sleep excessively. By doing that I see that I had more time to myself than I had imagined. That gave me the opportunity to do what I really want to do. I also have the necessary time to sleep. This was something that I battled with when I was battling the one medication for many years.

I had long doubted about doing the things that I wanted to do. I would also worry about missing my ride to where I needed to go on a certain day. Eventually I learned that neither was the case. Even while taking my medication, I get a good night’s sleep each evening. I can do the things I want. I never miss my ride to where I need to go. This significantly prevented me from realizing the importance of taking all my medications as prescribed. I avoided doing other things that I enjoyed due to anxiety. I believed certain things without actually trying and experiencing what I really wanted while being medicated.

I put behind what I had both feared and believed. This allowed me to see how much all of my medications, taken as prescribed, helped me. They helped me get through life, even as challenging as it was from time to time. I learned that even though I feared time, I did not have to worry so much about it. There was enough opportunity to do what I wanted to do. I get a good night’s sleep, which the medication helped me do while keeping me mentally regulated. It allowed me to put the flawed thoughts that I had long held on to rest once and for all.