It has been a long journey for me. I am now willing to let go of what I have held onto for far too long. I used it as a way to feel a sense of hatred and retaliation towards other people. I had long believed they were hurtful to me, but that was not the case. I was led to see things as I wanted. This belief did not show reality. They no longer exist in the same way. Nevertheless, I held on to the hard feelings for a very long time. Eventually, I decided to choose to live in peace.

It took a lot for me to be willing to let go of the grudges. I held them on to others for no obvious reason. I thought I needed a sense of payback. I wanted a way to come back at people because I was once as hurt as I once was. Eventually I learned that doing that was not going to help in any way. It no longer made sense and would only make things worse for me and others. I had to learn to be willing to let go of all of those hard feelings. These were feelings I had about things that no longer exist in the way that they do. I had to be willing to choose peace and move on with my life in a better way.

I had learned that by being at peace, there was much to discover. This was beside the energy I had pent up for so long. I had let it control my life, even when it had no business doing so. It caused me to ruminate on it and even brought on delayed echolalia. It took time to go away. I understood that things change and that I had to be willing to move on with those changes. I had to be willing to see that there was so much more to live for. By being at peace, I see the joy in life. I count my blessings. There was so much to be grateful for.

I had to learn that just harboring those old useless thoughts was very unhealthy for me. These thoughts were causing more harm than good. This was true not only in my life but also in the lives of others. When I considered living in the past, I realized others involved did not want to relive those experiences. By working with them, I learned to let go and realize that things have improved. It was better to strive for peace and not hold grudges.

I have learned to move on with my life. As a result, my life has gotten much better. The thoughts and delayed echolalia have eventually diminished. Life improved because I saw that there were so many more things to live for. What had been harboring me for a long time no longer existed or needed to be hurtful to others.