For far too long, I have been overthinking things. This brought on anxiety about whether I had the ability to do what I wanted. I believed that everything needed to be done my way. I thought there was no room for flexibility because of my obsession with the clock. But what I had realized was that even if I had to rearrange things, they eventually would work out.

I constantly lived my life in fear. I questioned if I had the time and ability to do what I wanted to do. I often made it a point to accept that things would be done in time. Alternatively, they be postponed until a later time. This also interfered with my mental health care. I did not rank it as much as needed in my life. It was hard to discern what I wanted from what I needed. Not caring for myself made it worse.

Eventually, I got better at estimating the time it took to do things. I also improved at determining how much time I needed to be ready for some things that required waiting. It was a hard battle to fight for the longest time. Over time, it improved. I realized that there was often time to do what I wanted. Other things had the ability to be postponed or delayed.

I had to realize that sometimes it was best to step away from things that held me down. I didn’t see how much they made me overthink. I constantly worried about them being or not being. I couldn’t see that things were hurting me more than helping me. It took realizing what truly helped me exist more. I be the best I was. I stopped overthinking actions that detracted from my overall well-being. This helped with my existence in the world.

I focused on what was truly needed to make my day the best it can be. I aimed to get the best for my mental health. I knew this was what needed to be done most, more than other things that mattered in life. I also understood that some things were a priority. Hobbies existed only in their appropriate places.

I had to let go of what I believed needed to be a reality. I needed to focus more on what was. I couldn’t allow myself to overthink things that didn’t need to be. There was value in caring for my mental health. Others were capable of seeing me at all stages of it. It had become a goal of mine to avoid repeating past conversations. These conversations often left others concerned and scared about the future. By taking that to heart, I know I must focus on my mental health. I should avoid overthinking about things that can’t be fixed or don’t matter at the moment. I am the one that matters the most for the right reasons by doing what is right all the time.