Throughout the past few years when I became frustrated over things like change and my mental health causing unwanted side effects, I wanted to be angry or not feel like I was being heard, but it was two parts in many ways. I had to be responsible in many ways, people had to make decisions and while they had their concerns, they wanted to be able to get a true value basis for the opinion of how the decisions that they helped create was benefiting or not.

The same can be said for whether or not to do something on your own just because it has been something that you have done. Over the past two years, I have made destructive decisions because I was becoming frustrated for many reasons, but I would never share what I was really feeling or be able to see that I too had a responsibility to carry too in making the changes that was necessary to flip the script of how I was really feeling towards being the way that I was.

There has been times in the past few years that I scared people because I have made destructive decisions that were not for the best for me. Many times, it was because it had feelings and did not discuss them with people or believe that they actually heard me because I had assumed that I had thought that they had only cared about themselves. Eventually with many things that I have seemed happen, eventually it made me stronger and made me more independent.

Ironically, it has been because I had believed that I felt that I was not being head or that I had not taken my mental health seriously and do the work on my own that was needed to be able to cope with the challenges that I could not see, I was also not able to be patient in the process that eventually things do get better and although deep down it does seem like it is difficult for me to process, it took to see that they cared in a different way and would be there for me in the times because we could relate in many ways.

As hard as it can be for what can seem like others value what you had to say about something, it is also knowing that you have to give things time to deliver a fair evaluation of how it really is so you can have a healthy discussion about the what they need to assess and see that things are worth it because they stuck it out. You may eventually discover as I did recently that they too had concerns because of the same concerns, but after my personal experience and being able to share things in a healthier manner than what you would without giving something the objective evaluation that needed to be done.

Ultimately care and concern comes in many forms and eventually I was relieved to realize that there was concerns, but I had to be patient with myself and wait to see how things really worked out for the better. It is in those moments where you may not see it, that people do really care for you and that it is worth sticking it out and be objective first.