While after a lengthy period of not understanding the necessity of my mental health medication and allowing myself to accept the side effects of the medications for what they are due to the benefits of the medication outweighing the side effects, I have grounded myself as to where I fall with my sexual identity and can finally start to feel more authentic within myself in order to allow myself to be who I really am without fear of judgment from others.

Being who I am means that I understand that my life is different, but I understand that I chose not to boast or express myself too much to let on any unwanted attention. Having peace of mind is simply just that, not having to overshare all about me and working towards finding the proper response when topics arise that would provoke me to fall into line with something that does not align with what I am interested in experiencing.

Yet, being authentic does not exclude the necessity of having to be cordial in situations where others approach me about things or may not find pleasure in communicating with. There are going to be instances where I am going to have to communicate with others that may not understand the reason behind why I am not interested in something or taking a friendship to the next level.

While I understand that friendships do not equal relationships, there are instances were allowing others that I have trouble communicating with due to their challenges  can be overwhelming, I must understand their challenges as well as mine and be able to have the answers or methods necessary to be able to manage my life, as necessary.

As I am allowing my authenticity to shine, there are many elements of not only my personal but public life that I must retool and relearn in the way that is compatible with the life I live now because while I am discovering the true person that I am, there are things that I did in the past that are ineffective or improper and cause more challenges than success.

Being authentic is being open and receptive to differences and challenges in others along with knowing what I am feeling or am interested in is perfectly acceptable. It is also knowing that I am still rediscovering and retooling things as there are going to be bumps in the way of understanding and accepting what I like now since my mental heath challenges are better grounded.

 have accepted myself for who I really am and allowing myself to be who I want to be and not letting the opinions of others get in my way. It is also understanding that not all of my life has to be honest with everyone and while still living the moral compass that I know that I must do, there is no harm in being the person that I truly want to be as long as I am following the orders given by my support team so that my mental well-being can continue to exist and I never get to the point where I have been in the past.