Many times, it can be hard to imagine what wonders such things as taking medication can do for your mental health or the fact that you do sleep all night. But seeing that your mind can focus beyond the thought that you’ve been deeply ruminating on for the past day and the difference that you can see. Sometimes it takes realizing that it is indeed the medication that helps and that even going a slight bit off course only sets up for things to go array.

It has been proven time and time again that I need medication to manage my daily living. Yet, there have been moments that I have been again doubtful because of being moody or irritable when taking it, but maybe I was not looking at the whole picture of what works in addition to the medication. Yes, I now realize that without a doubt that medication is crucial for my daily wellness, but other things are needed too, like getting adequate sleep and eating at regular intervals also helps.

But being disregardful about the things that keep me in line only sets me back further on the track of getting better and being able to do the things that I need to do. I notice that I do not do the things that are needed, and things fall behind. My mood gets irritated, and I have a great lack of caring when it comes to doing what Is needed around the house and such. Things just don’t get taken care of and that is when other things start to fall apart and get behind.

Though the medication is not to blame for other things like weight gain, it is important to remember that I need to do what is necessary to take care of myself, so I do not fall into the cracks that I previously fell in a few months ago. I know that it was a bad place and I do not want to ever get back there again, finally after getting my affairs back into place is no reason at all to fall backwards because of getting easily frustrated about something so small.

I am such a smart and intelligent person and not doing the simple things like taking pills or getting rest is only setting me up to go back into the past that I keep repeating and I know that no matter what I do on my own does not in any way improve my mental wellbeing. I never know what it is going to take for me to understand that medication is a necessity to my daily life and when I do not do what I need to do, it only places me more on edge and unable to navigate life’s challenges as they come. Instead, I make them as the bigger deals as they have been the past few years and eventually, I will become a hysterical monster and explode in some motion.

I understand that the medication is not meant to form me into what the world wants me to be, rather it makes the challenges that I must face much more manageable and able to navigate than without the medication. When I am not medicated, I am living in survival mode only getting through the day as I am able to. I know that it works because what I was previously fighting is not an issue in the current moment nor is it as intense as it once was, neither is it a ruminating thought that is not the slightest bit bothersome in my mind, like the thoughts are not as bad as they have been over the past few years.

I need to understand what does work and ultimately the medication helps, and I think I have once again realized that it is essential to daily living and by setting goals for the day, week and so forth are the path of maintaining what is needed to be well. Therefore, medication is just a piece of what is needed to be and stay well. It does play a part, but I must be aware that I must do my part in what is needed to be well besides taking my medication and other necessary tasks like staying away from caffeine and other things that can be harmful to my mental health. The reality is that it takes everything working in concert to make sure that everything is in check and is the best for me and those around me.