In 2025 I have mentioned that it is progress over perfection. That sentiment is very true this year as I have made great strides in improving my mental health. As many have read on my blog, I had flawed thoughts about medication. These persisted over the past several years. This changed before this year. In 2025 I decided to flip the script to the old ways, and it has begun to pay off.

I have also recognized a change with the life of my parents. I am now more independent. There is a reality that they can’t save me in the way that they once did. They have been living this way for years and I did not see it. But in the end, it was those events that happened that made me stronger. They made me realize that I had to change the narrative towards being better. That was not the person that I wanted to be nor wanted others to see.

Now I am living by example. I realize that others look up to me. I am seen as the shining example of what someone who is challenging things is supposed to be. I have always known that. But I shrugged it off as something I can get by without caring for myself for this or that reason. In the past few months, many things have changed in my life. I realized that I needed to be my best self every day. Others expect this of me.

It can be hard to accept the reality of some of the situations that I must endure. But it has been better because I know that others expect me to be my best. They would not want me to not be my best. Even though I think that the world will slip by as I am getting sleep. But we are all human and need sleep. The longer I delay sleep, the more I will need it. I am near the crashing point, even though I do not see it.

Going to sleep early because I needed to catch the bus seemed childish. But eventually I learned that others did it too because they want to be up early just like me. It is just what it is and there is nothing wrong with it. I would often doubt myself and as a result my thoughts about bedtime medication became flawed in nature. Eventually I realized I was only hurting myself and continuing to fight a battle that I was not winning.

Overall, things have been much better. 2025 has been a year of yet many more changes. These changes have been made in their own way. I have managed to accept them because I cared for my mental health. Taking care of my mental health was crucial. Others have always said that doing so was crucial, but I didn’t believe them. Now I see what the advantage of doing so can offer.

It is known that being my best self-everyday can pay off in its very own way. I have traveled a long road to get to this point. There can be no looking back. I am thriving and not just surviving. I know that not being my best has consequences that can be detrimental to me and my livelihood. I do not want to see things as that way anymore.