Most of my life as a neurodivergent person, the holidays have been a struggle for me to muddle my way through because of all the factors that it involves. Yet, as I am finally settled in a better place in my mind, I am realizing that I need to define my own or new traditions.
As we approach the holiday season and near the end of the year, I often think of making new habits. Notice that I said habits and not resolutions, those are different! ‘
To my loved ones throughout my life, I was often considered lazy. This continually-fed train of thought led me into the current chapter of my life thinking that until I learned about the amount of energy needed for me to endure the motions of the day.
As much as I want to be an Energizer bunny and keep on going as my brain can do if I allow it, doing just that will only make my brain worse.
Today was one of the days that didn't go the way I had planned.
When people think of being autistic, they often think of it as this profound way of thinking we are unable to do things that neurotypicals can do. We can and wes often put up a lot to be included and do everything else that we are asked to do, but not every day is perfect, nor can it be.
Hopefully in 2023, I'll get to the top of the hill where this Cross pictured is, I struggled this year, but I have a goal to make it easier in 2023, both physically and mentally.
There's a time that I know that I am checked out.
One of the common misconceptions of being autistic is the fact that we don’t show empathy or know how to be kind to others. Oftentimes this is brought to light in the first time that you get to know us, because if you knew who I am, I am quite the empath and can show empathy.
Without much ado, many of my followers have withstood me throughout the struggles since literally the writing of my blog with my medication. I am proud to say that with all honesty, I only missed one dose in all of the last prescription box. This is a BIG achievement for me.
I am accepting and learning that in order to stop feeling so miserable about my life that I need to reframe former behaviors that I once had from happening in my life. It is no one’s fault for those behaviors, it was the fact that I valued them more than they needed to.
When we as autistic people are validated for needing to sit out of something or that we can't do something the way that it is being done, no word feels better by those helping than the words 'It's OK'
Most of my life, I have related the term "go to bed" as some sense of being the "bad child" or that it was time for the "grown-ups"
There are times when I get stuck in The Loop that I fall into The Trap.
Sometimes my brain enters a loop. The loop of ruminating thoughts. Ruminating on negative things.
Three years ago. It was a completely different place.
One of the traits of being autistic is the fact that we see things in “black and white” and hardly any “gray” areas of a situation. For the longest time, I struggled with the fact that things have to be exactly as they need to be or they can’t be right.
Living life as I can, in my way, in my time.
If you noticed in my feature blog last week, I titled it “Why Can’t I just be happy? It goes without saying that as soon as I wrote that post, I began to feel better about myself and have a whole different outlook on life as a result of seeing life in a different way.
The Bed Is A Trap.