Yesterday, I had an epiphany. While I WANT to adult, I HAVE to put forth the effort to want and need the changes and the responsibilities of being an adult. For the majority of my adulthood, I have shied away from issues in life because they may require me to put my “big boy pants” on and fight them. Oftentimes, for me, anxiety is a big player in the game of adulting that really isn’t a game, because I just revert back to my immature self and refuse to deal with the issues at hand, because I personally know they are going to be unpleasant and scary for me to tackle.
He affirmed that every word of that was true and he too has his own faults and that he'd work on not being so harsh on me. It, for a moment made me happy and positive
Today in most countries around the world is Father's Day. It is a day for those in fatherly like roles to be honored for doing that fatherly duty. Yes, I have a father, and I love him greatly, but oftentimes I do not show it nor do I ever give him the respect that he deserves for tolerating me.
I continually struggled with sacrificing for others although I may not like it. This very issue has been a hotbed of discussion between myself and my parents, more so since I have been staying with them for some time now.