2022 has been an exciting year. I feel in a really good place mentally and seem to be grounded really well in many ways that I haven’t been since my first independence experience. Now that I worked out many of the kinks that I had to discover on my own, it is now time to get real and grow from where I left off over three years ago.
As many start off 2022 with a resolution to lose weight, I have that plan too asI have had 2 decades ago when I weighed 100 pounds less than I do now. I know I did alot in 2021 to get a fresh start but I must continue to blend what I have learned with what I know I need to do.
Sugar, Sugar how I love thee should be the theme song to my life. For over a decade battling a sugar addiction has been the forefront of my life. I have heard my fair share over the years of how bad it is, particularly in beverage form mixed with caffeine in my diet. While I do recognize the fact that I will never eradicate it totally from my diet, I can certainly accept the fact that I need to immensely cut back from the levels I was consuming in 2021.
For almost two years I have lived in a continual state of fear of doing things outside of my safe space. I have taken each and every precaution that was made available to me. I believed the words of our government leaders. And while I do believe there is some merit to the information that is being delivered to us, I have to live a little and start 2022 by not living in total fear of the COVID-19 Pandemic.
Back to the wellness department, I honestly have to say in both regards of physical and mental wellness the fight has been hard to keep burning. I know it is the right thing to do, but the inner voices keep thinking that going off-course would be a better idea, although I mentally revisit the points that don’t make it so good.
This week is a landmark week on the wellness journey. Six months ago I had a visit to my doctor’s office where I got on the scale. I weighed 358 pounds, the clinically highest in my life. For some time I had experienced back pain and other difficulties when walking long distances. When I got on the scale that day, I knew I had to get back on track because the Quarenteen and then some had caught up to me.
With the hot and humid weather, the past few months, it has been detrimental for me to want to partake in any walking. As such, I have been lacking in taking care of myself and can now realize that some of the pains from walking long distances have returned and I know that it can get bad if not properly rectified to having more of a shift on overall wellness.
With the “new” normal that we are experiencing and the return to what we want to consider a norm by standards, I have somewhat forgotten what working is and the overwhelming demand that is placed on my work now that we are returning to what is considered pre-pandemic levels. It can exhaust me to the point that I don’t realize that it is essential to self-regulate because if not I will dwell myself in a sense of negativity and not want to resume my normal activity.
A common trait in autism is the fact that while many of us want to meet our basic needs to be well, we often cannot recognize the need to do so. This process is called interception. It can come across to others that we are lazy and don’t care about our basic needs, when in fact we just don’t know that we need to take care of it.
Sometimes it can be hard when we as human beings don’t see the number or the progress that we want to have. That is no different for one who is in a constant battle of losing weight. While at first, I was doing very well by not gaining any weight for around 15 weeks in a row, a halt arrived and It took me about a month to realize that I need to step up my game plan.