Recently, I had recognized without scheduling that I needed to just take a day for myself. This was at first a hard thing for me to do as I initially felt as if it was some sort of punishment, but in reality it was a really good thing and I was validated for doing what I needed to do.
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Whether I like to admit it or not, there is a relationship to the food that I consume and the effect it brings on my emotional behavior. In relation to other things in the journey that I have been facing, I must realize that food plays a part in the relationship I must endure and having the right food helps.
Sometimes people have an emotional relationship with food, and I am no different when it come to that. I have felt that at times I felt that I ate out of boredom or to be emotionally pleasured and not having something to fill the void of my empty time, but in reality it is defining my relationship with food and not linking it to a behavior.
With the month of April, it brings a lot of changes with the spring weather abound but for me it has also brought the effects of my work at losing weight the past month and as such my weight has greatly come down in five weeks time because of my due diligence to losing weight.
Sometimes when working on our wellness goals, it can be an all-or-nothing way of thinking, but it is important to realize that it takes all dimensions of one’s wellness to create a perfect balance in order to reach optimum wellness and sometimes not having a perfect balance can make your goals not come to fruition.
When embarking on a journey of trying to do better for yourself, such as I am, you want things to go just right and not backslide or become challenging. As my mother tells me, it is all about the choices we make that make or break us.
For many years my relationship with being healthy has been quite skewed. I understood that I had a bad relationship with it, but it never registered and I punished myself again and again for the behaviors/relationship without understanding that I needed to improve it.
Life is all about choices. When we are adults, and especially with challenges where our brain is wired differently, it can cause the brain to be skewed in nature, causing us to not take care of ourselves and not make the right choice when it comes to being well.
Last week, I had mentioned that the week before I switched to a more convenient gym closer to my home. Last week was also my first visit there and just making the first move makes me more inspired to get out and do what is needed to make the changes more constant in my life.
Being autistic, you constantly second guess yourself and whether you are doing the right thing. I am always wondering whether or not it was a “good move” to do something or not. But, when it is something that will have a little bit of an effect on you, then there is no harm in doing it.
Always with my mind focusing on the need to lose weight on my obese body, I had the opportunity recently to attend a webinar to learn how to organize the food in my kitchen and I realized that I needed to let go of the food that had no use to me in my life.
Recently, being more agitated and defensive than normal, it was conveyed to me that I may have been doing something to aid that process. I then looked back and realized that indeed I had been and it has been the culprit many times to me eventually ending up in meltdown or other controversial behaviors.
Sometimes being autistic, it can be hard to understand that your body has a limit on what it can do. As such I have learned the hard way that things have to happen in order for me to be my best self and not fall into the trap that I have long fallen into.
As we start the second month of 2023, I am continuing the journey of having a positive mindset in 2023. I am making so many changes for the better, letting go of the past and allowing myself to be my true and genuine self while understanding I want to be an overall healthier person.
As 2023 arrived, I realized that I needed to do a reality check on all things on the wellness front. I had to realize that in 2023 I needed to get real about all parts of wellness, physical, mental and spiritual.
My brain is often wired to see the bad in my life. There are however many good things in my life and one focal point of being well is seeing that my wellness is better than I think it is often, regardless of wanting to think negatively about things that happen.
Part of being well is having the understanding that there are things in life that must be endured. Even though I am an adult, it can be hard at times to play the adult in me and this can present a challenge in being well.
Being autistic, my brain is constantly overthinking. It can be a wonder sometimes when I know I need to take a break. It can be the fact of having to fight with my body for the need to just relax and take it easy so I do not become overwhelmed or overloaded to the point that I completely shut down.
As we near the end of the year and work our way to ringing in 2023 in a few days, a few weeks ago I have accepted the fact that doing what I need to do in order to protect myself is OK, acceptable and sometimes appreciated in order to maintain optimal wellness and protect others.
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